And again, another one of those

This has been a whirlwind 2 weeks.

Accidents happened.
and Nothingness happened.

You've been cold.
And now you said you wanted to cry.

I know you don't see it.
But I hurt when you hurt.

I just don't let it show.

Your pain travels to me.
And I wish I could take it away.

So I pray.
I ask Him to take care of you.

I plead for Him to take you in His arms.
I beg for Him to relieve you of your pain.

Because I'm all the way here,
and I can't get to you.

Come to think of it, even if I were there
I wouldn't be able to get to you too.

Your walls get higher and your moat gets wider
Each time I try to break through.

Your hands automatically push me away.
Your demeanor automatically keeps me at bay.

All I want is to walk in to your life
especially when everyone else walks out of it.

You won't let me, though.

But it's okay.
I get it.

I know how it's like to be frightened to let people in.
I do that too... a lot of the time.

Sometimes, I used to do that to you.
But not anymore.

Because you were the one who taught me not to.
You said it was okay to let people in.

So I let you.
and even if you don't know it now, you still have me.

That's why it hurts when you're hurting.

I have no choice though.
So I just pray to Him.

Ask Him to take care of you.
Ask Him to watch over you.

Ask Him to protect you.
Ask Him to make you feel that He loves you.

Because I love you.
even if you won't let me in.