Quoting Tree Hill

Even me... I'll be away soon. I can't help it. I'd even go as far as saying I want to... I really do.

Which is why I understand them... for leaving... for wanting out... permanently or otherwise.

Sometimes we come back, though. But that doesn't make us the same people we were before. We're either better or worse, but never the same.

The situations aren't any different. We either get closer or we drift apart... Or, out of sheer denial of the inevitable, try to hold on to what we had before even if we both know there's really no point in trying.

Yes, I do want to leave. I want out for a while.

Because there's too much here... too much unrequieted drama and too much unecessary pain... and no matter how hard I try to be uninvolved, the love for these people just pulls me back smack in the middle of it all.

Not that I'm complaining.

I'm all for listening... and I'm down with the drama... It's part of our lives... of our friendships. I can stand it for as much as my strength can hold me... and I would rather take the pain than give it to any of these people I call my own.

But when it becomes repetitive behavior, so much so that the downward spiral becomes a dangerous whirlpool threatening to stomp all over our sanity, I begin to wonder if there's a good point to all of this.

So even if only for a while, we leave... hoping that when we come back, we return with wider threads of strength to carry us through.

Because none of us know if we'll really be able to take that break again.