Racing Thoughts

Amazingly enough... I do give a shit.

Can I stop myself from being human? Can I refrain from acting up like this?

Yeah sure, everything may just as well be every-fuckin-thing, as I would always say...

But I am, after all, a person... with feelings... emotions...

And i'm sorry.

I'm sorry because, apparently, I AM NOT AS DESENSITIZED AS I THOUGHT.

And even more unbelievably, I'm sorry for sharply feeling the pangs of negligence and rejection...

Your negligence and rejection.

The most bitter taste of this pill called pain is the prevalent sensation rolling around my entire body...

Pain from your indifference.

It keeps me wondering...

Is the rift between you and his assholiness causing us to gain a not-so-great divide?

I can't help it...

I try to blind it from my mind's eye... but even that proves to be the most exhausting exercise in futility.

The tears won't fall... because maybe there aren't any...

Not yet, anyway.